I wrote this earlier this week but felt self-conscious about posting it. Today I had a day where I thought in my heart, "All I have is a dollar" in a very similar way about something particular and re-read this entry and decided it is my blog, my thoughts, and my heart and I am not going to feel self-conscious about this. So here it is:
Today I went to the grocery store to pick up a few essentials like milk, floss, and bread. I knew David wouldn't be home yet so I just took my time and wandered around.
It came time for me to go up to the cash register and I picked the line with the lady in a wheel chair because I really didn't mind waiting today. She had several various piles of food and I am guessing had several different payment methods. She was probably in her late twenties or early thirties with a tattoo on the back of her neck. I wasn't really paying attention to her, I was reading dumb tabloids but I overheard the cashier say,"that will be two thirteen." Then I started to pay attention as the lady in the wheelchair said "wait, wait, wait... two thirteen? two thirteen?... I only have a dollar, all I have is a dollar" she was frantic looking through her purse on her lap and dialing someone on the phone. I stepped forward and realized the cashier was saying $2.13 not $213.00 and offered to pay for it and slid my card. The lady didn't realize what was going on until after I did it and she was embarrassed but still thanked me. She was buying the cheapest kind of laundry detergent there was.
As I drove away from the store my heart just melted, I thought things were just a little bit rough for me with our water heater broken and having a sinus infection for a month and a half and now being on my second round of antibiotics. I realized how much I really do have to be grateful for. I am sure this lady had many many blessings in her life and I don't mean to say I have so much more. There are times in my life when I am so desperate for peace, comfort, or friendships and come up short just like this lady and cry out in my heart in a similar way, "A dollar, a dollar, all I have is a dollar." I am grateful for answers that come in forms of friends, a loving husband, or the sweet comfort of the spirit in those soft, quiet moments.
$2.13 is nothing really to give but I gained such a valuable lesson today and realized how many times I have been reached out to in just the moment that I need it and I feel so overwhelmingly blessed for those moments.
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